what time is it? Time to go son.

There is nothing more written. There comes a time in a writer's life when there is nothing more to write. I ask the question myself, why did I start writing in the first place. I begin to think about why I write. You know our thoughts are our complications. And our difficulties make us who we are. I was a nobody until I met people. People gave me reasons to live. And the people who gave me reasons left. It was that I left them forever.

Them seems to be too long. Why did you fail? Why are you blaming yourself? Why are you like this? While there ever be a second chance in life. You failed even to make an effort. Who will be with you? What am I even doing here? 

Why are you not jumping? You know people are waiting for you on the other side. I know I have to go but let me live a little bit more. Because I am not done with myself. I feel sad for myself. I feel sad because, on the inside, I'm sorry. Maybe my mental health needs to be assessed.

But why are you living with people? Why do you want to love them? You can't express yourself. You cannot be vulnerable. You are not even genuine. You are fake. What do you fake yourself? You know exactly what you are. This is what you have been all your life. Do you need help with something? I can't help you because you put a barrier to yourself that nobody could break. Even you cheated yourself? Why are you like this? Let me see if I can help you with your problem.

First of all, you don't have any issues. All your problems are your stories. This is how you have been surviving all your life. But why we're you surviving all your life. Why didn't you live? You have regrets, son. Your regrets are going to be with you till your grave. I pray that you take them with you in the after life. I mean, your existence itself is a question if you are in doubt. Can you get a life now, after all, you've been through?

I have no answer for you, son. But I do know one thing there will be a day when you will stop thinking of all these. I pray it comes soon because you have had enough. Life can be challenging, but it doesn't do justice to everyone.